This year has been different and I’ve definitely learned a lot. Especially as it relates to faith and peace. Faith in the unseen. Peace in the unknown.
On March 1st, I was laid off from work and given a severance package that was to last for several months. As the months began winding down, I began looking for work but as I applied, I noticed the doors to those opportunities close. At first I didn’t understand. All I knew was that my funds were depleting and my need for a job was increasing but I clearly heard the voice of the Holy Spirit tell me “I’m closing the doors because I’m going to teach you something.” It isn’t common or even wise to pass up job interviews/job offers because you’re waiting for the opening God has for you while the truth remains that you don’t have a job (and have been without a job for almost six months), your money has run out yet even still, God says “Trust Me”. So you go from job interview, to job offer, passing up each one, knowing it’s not the one God has chosen for you. Then just at the right moment, at the right time, when it seems like everything is sure to fall apart; you land the job God had all along and when you arrive, you quickly learn the reason you were placed there. Though it was suggested in not so many words that I should “curse my God and die”, I refused. I trusted God even though I didn’t understand what He was doing. I knew one thing was certain. If He was closing the doors, He was going to provide. During this time, the Lord took care of my bills, blessing me abundantly through loved ones. I never lacked food in my fridge, gas in my car or a roof over mine and my son’s head. God provided. What’s amazing is that from the very beginning, Jesus gave me peace that everything would work out according to His will and so it did.
Later in March, I also received some news regarding my health. I was diagnosed with a condition that if not treated, could turn into uterine cancer. I recall telling my doctor at the time, “You will see the God I serve. My God is Jehovah Rophe, the God that heals”. I’m sure she thought I was crazy but I didn’t care. I knew my God. She placed me on a medication that caused me to lose my hair. I had a sense in my spirit to stop the medication and told God “I’d rather stop this medication and learn You healed me rather than continue on the med, later learning I’m healed but then doctors and medicine are given credit for the miracle working power of You, my God”. In faith, I stopped the medication I was told to take. Then after starting a new job, I learned that there was a very strong possibility cancer could be present. While fear wanted to grip me, I decided to trust the Lord. So, it’s safe to say that it isn’t common or even wise to stop medication without doctor’s approval. But by faith, I decided to trust God even if He chose not to heal me but I knew He could and that He was a God of His word. So I trusted and believed God for my healing and so it was according to His word. Before I could see it, He gave me peace that it was done. He said it was done and I believed Him. Sure enough, God healed me.
Having peace in the unknown isn’t easy. It is in our nature to worry if something is wrong. It is understandable if we get anxious in some way. But to lay aside fear, anxiety and worry solely by the power of the Holy Spirit is supernatural. To have peace as chaos surrounds you, as your future isn’t certain, is only possible with God. Additionally, learning what it truly means to have unshakeable faith, a faith that is not naturally common, especially when we look at things through natural lenses has been life changing. Faith is placing our hope in what we do not see. While I understood faith in many ways, I learned on a greater level. My faith has increased greatly and this experience has changed how I pray. From a place of bold faith, believing God for what seems impossible.
I believe God for the parting of Red Seas, I believe God for healing over those that need it as the woman with the issue of blood believed. I believe God to raise the dead – both naturally and spiritually. I believe God because if He did it before throughout scripture; He’s done in my life countless times as well as in the lives of others and I believe God will do it again in someone else’s life.
There aren’t enough words to express how thankful I am to have encountered God as my Provider (Jehovah Jireh) and as Healer (Jehovah Rophe). God is faithful. God is gracious. God is merciful. God is true. He is not a man that He should lie nor the son of man that He should repent. God is always on time.
I share the above as I reflected earlier today on these life changing events that occurred this year in my life. However; I also hope to encourage someone who is currently struggling in one way or another.
Maybe you’re currently battling illness in your body or know someone who is. Maybe it’s not an illness but a broken heart from something detrimental that took place this year. Whatever it may be, don’t stop believing God for healing. He heals. Maybe you’ve lost your job and can’t seem to find another one or maybe you’re working but can’t seem to make ends meet but you’ve been trusting God to come through. Don’t stop believing and trusting Him. He provides.
Something good has to come from this, even if it means that you’ll be stronger because of it. You’re sure to get the victory and He’ll be sure to get the glory. Either way, certainly point people to the One that made a way for you. He is the ultimate Way Maker. He works all things together for the good of those who love God and are called according to His purpose (Romans 8:28).
And the peace of God, which surpasses all understanding, will guard your hearts and minds in Christ Jesus. Philippians 4:7
Now faith is the reality of what is hoped for, the proof of what is not seen. Hebrews 11:1
Don’t stop believing. He is able.
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